Its crazy how much things have changed. Im happy though. I’ve formed new relationships and disposed of others. I feel that all of the venom is being sucked out of my life slowly and gradually. I feel the negative vibes deteriorating from the budding flowers of my life. My summer is shaping beautifully with dance and yoga and savoring friendships that will be more distant come the fall. I miss parts of my past. I have the memories locked inside and they’ll never decay, but Im happy with where I am now. Every time I make a wish, I wish for 4 things. I remember on my 17th birthday I went to Alice’s Teacup and when you leave they sprinkle fairy dust on you and tell you to make a wish and the 4 things popped up into my head. I wish I could voice them but that would spoil its precious charm. My goal in life is to witness all 4 of those wishes come true. I dwell and dream and fantasize about them nonstop, but to experience them would be bliss. Im not too sure what Im talking about anymore, but its ok. I feel like I am experiencing a rebirth now that I’m leaving high school. A precious part of my life has withered but a new part of my life is blossoming. I always waited for this moment, but now that its here, Im scared. Im scared of loosing friends that I love even though I’m more than positive that we’ll stay friends. Im scared to let go of all that I am familiar with and comfortable with. I won’t see the faces of strangers that I’d see everyday that I now realize hold a special place in my heart. Somehow though, I feel like we’ll all be connected. Im incarnating into myself and it feels somehow unfamiliar. All routine will disappear followed by a whole new idea of routine and life. Im stuck in a limbo where Im not reborn yet, but this part of me still hasn’t fully decayed. Time is crazy beautiful and Im slowly learning to appreciate everything that I experience and every emotion that I feel. Everything is so bittersweet but I feel the good vibes approaching and thats all that matters right now.